im a statue

Im a statue.
I watch people around.
People don’t c me.
They don’t notice me.

Im waiting,
For d person to come.
To me.

Im a statue.
I waited.
And watched.


Im a statue.
My whole body is made of stone.
My hands, legs, everything.
Including the so called heart.

Im a statue,
Till I meet her.

i see a land.
full of high green plants.
the wind touched felt so gud.
the air is clean.
its so fresh.
i can c happyness infront.
i feel so calm,
no worries.
its so perfect,
priceless...
and the sky...
oh, the sky contribute 2 dis perfect condition.
there's a lot of cloud in the white blue sky.
it felt like anything can be held.
from picnic 2 'hide and seek'.
no sadness can emerge during dis time.
in fact,
it makes us smile unreasonably.
because we feel so gud...

at the end of the day, i'ld ask my self,
wat i did 2 deserve such a gud moment...

and then, mayb i'll feel afraid again,
coz, dis might b a test from god.
its better 2 live hard than 2 live easily not knowing wether i deserve it or not.

a lie?

im in iut now,
no more internet 24/7...
ari2 masuk kat lab leh check frensta je..
ym xder dlm pc ni...
dis is my life.
bored, and boredom.
i miss sumthin,
its hard to say,
but rite now.
wat important the most is,
im breathing.
and as long as i still m,
i need 2 cycle tht bike 2 class everyday,
climb tht stairs to my room,
and sleep(or trying to...).
i dun really understand wat einstein said bout time, but
time has gone really fast.
everythings fast.
except me.
everytime i woke up,
i know God still gave me one day 2 live.
He's been kind 2 me.
although im not...
people keep saying they're bad.
when other ppl say they r gud.
y dun they just say yeah, i have faith in god, i think im gud.
i met dfferent ppl everyday,
from many countries,
and they're all like us.
and im still who im.
people can make many interpretation bout ppl stayin abroad.
yet they only know a few...
we alwayz make conclusion base on wat we c when wat we c is just a part of a big puzzle.
i try 2 open my mind as much as i can.
but i cant deny,
the pain tht burdens ppl like me.
i wonder if i'll alwayz b like dis...
still,
as long as im breathing,
i need 2 climb tht stairs to my class...

wanna write sumthin 2day

i played football 2day,
its sumthin i hadnt done 4 a very long time...
i played wif da swiss...
who could hav guess tht???
they were BIG.
but i was machoer... :P
we lost... big gaps...
class intensif has started,
so hard...
so little time...
feel like 24hours a day is not enough,
but its my fault,
didnt organize time wisely...
like rite now i hav assignment, but im doin dis blog...

life is beautiful

Smile, without a reason why
Love, as if you were a child,
Smile, no matter what they tell you
Don't listen to a word they say
Cause life is beautiful that way.

Tears, a tidal wave of tears
Light, that slowly disappears
Wait, before you close the curtain
There is still another game to play
And life is beautiful that way

Here with his eyes forevermore
I will always be as close as you
remember from before
Now that you're out there on your own
Remember what is real and
what we dream is love alone

Keep the laughter in you eyes
Soon your long awaited prize
We'll forget about our sorrows
And think about a brighter day
Cause life is beautiful that way.

We'll forget about our sorrows
And think about a brighter day,
Cause life is beautiful that way
There's still another game to play
And life is beautiful that way

-from the film "life is beautiful"

2nd in france

im in a big hall,
im being beaten up,
infront of hundreds of people.
who sum i know,
they all laughin at me,
i just let myself being beaten up,
i couldnt fight back,
the guy is so big and strong,
nobody's helping me,
im so weak,
so sad,
yet im not dead,
im still breathin,
but there's blood,
and pain,
and satisfaction.
coz of who im.
im being beaten up, hurt,
inside...
so...
hurt.
so frustrated.
that it feels satisfied to see myself
being beaten up and smashed hard.
because,
thats Me.

1st in france

im in my room, here, in aix-en-provence.
dis is my adress:
chez mdm otsmane,
chemin de beauregard,
13100 aix-en-provence.

my room is not so small.
juz me here...
i hav my laptop,
hav internet
borin...
i do dis
i had great time here...
i miss malaysia... ofcoz...
ssum ppl say i hav everythin i want 2...
mayb..
i should b thankfull.
still
no matter where im...
im still alone...
there's still nobody.
2 walk with me.
im all alone...
thts all 4 today...
will put in sum other time..
au revoir..